I'm Here!

So i'm finally in Colorado! It could possibly be the most beautiful place i've ever been. The handiwork of God is magnificent... it is so everywhere... but this valley is awesome. I could go on talking about how beautiful it is... but my words or pictures won't do it justice! It's that good friends!
So... let's see. I am already learning a lot. I came out to Colorado... for a few reasons but one of them was to get away from life in California for a while. To remove myself to hear from God. I needed quiet... newness. I came begging God that he would speak to me... and i am still asking the same. I want to hear God this summer... and he is already on the move. I am excited to see how God stretches me, what he teaches me and where he guides me. I've had this vision for a while that I'm in this process... that I've been working through a lot... and God is teaching me and softening my heart to intimacy with him. That he is completing something in me and going to propel me forward. To where? I have no idea...
But i am trying to be faithful and obedient to His voice. That i would remove any hinderances that slow me down from running with everything i have toward Him alone. That nothing would sidetrack me from magnifying and glorifying my Creator. That is my prayer...
I started reading Don't Waste Your Life, by John Piper for this summer. I am being reminded that the glory of God is the main thing. God's greatest passion is to bring glory to himself... not to provide me with an easy life... or bless me... or even love me for that matter... but to make his renown know. My passions should match. To glorify God is why i was created... that my life... every aspect of it would honor and glorify Him. If it isn't... i'm wasting my life.
Sitting in this valley has made it easy for me to see God as exalted. I feel so small... as i am, and should be. That is greatest place i could be. For that... i am thankful that the Lord placed me here this summer. He is going to do amazing things... AMAZING things... i just want to cooperate with his movement in my life and in the lives of the families coming up here!
so.. that's my first 3 days in a nutshell... more to come!! The Lord is Good!! Soooo stinkin good!

Rockin Music Video...

Thoughts?

Wonderful

Last night i was wonderfully reminded how wonderful my family and friends are! Man... it was such a great nite!! I think i wrote about Colorado in my last post... but whatever... im doing it again. I was thinking about how much i'm going to miss people when im gone! It's only 2 and a half months... i can do that! : )
COME VISIT ME! : )

Too Many Thoughts

It's definitely 1:15 am. And I'm wide awake. I'm trying to make my eyes tired by looking at my computer screen! :) haha

So I'm done with finals. Why am i still awake? No need to worry anymore or lose sleep about how I'm not studying enough or what not... I'm stinkin' done! Well... let's see... what is on my mind.

1. Colorado. I'm moving to Colorado in less than a week! Crazy! I'm so excited but at the same time rather nervous. I mean I handle change really well... i know i will love it... but it's the unfamiliarity of everything about going out there! I've never been to Colorado. So simple things like packing details are stressing me out. Why? I don't know. I'm excited to spend some time, quality time, with the Lord this summer. My time at the camp is going to be spent serving the families that come... which is awesome! I know i am going to learn so much while im there! My prayer is that God would break me down and build me back up... more in the likeness of his Son. That i would come back changed. So pray for that too! :) 

2. I didn't get the Hollywood internship. Good thing right... I mean I'm going to Colorado! :) But this truly showed me the hand of God in my life. As much as i wanted the internship in Hollywood... God wanted me elsewhere! Which is awesome, because he gave me the peace and joy about following his lead... wherever that meant. I guess he meant Colorado. :)

3. I'm having to pack up my apartment... knowing full well that when i return in august i will be returning as an RC! Though i am super stoked about this opportunity... i'm unsure of what that exactly looks like! I'm also praying that God would prepare me for that this summer.

4. and lastly... though there is a lot more on my mind. I'm thinking about my Popi and my Nana. My Popi is doing well... but I don't want to miss out on him getting better! Like when i leave, life in California will continue, just without me. I'm scared of missing something huge. Also, my Nana is going through chemo right now... im also scared of missing something huge in her life. Or not being a part of the family who's fighting this alongside her. I don't want to be the one family member who leaves when so much stuff is going on. Though i know this is where God has me for the summer... it's a tension I'm thinking about. 

Hence the lack of sleep! :) Who could sleep with all this nonsense (and more) in their head. Yie... ok... 1:30... maybe i'll try again!! Good nite!

LOVE IT!

I love adventure. Everything about it. Knowing that you on this road, going somewhere, but you have no idea what your next stop is going to be, or what you're going to do!! It's like you're just riding this wave... and you just take it as it comes! Take the turns as they come... and just enjoy the view!! LOVE IT! I mean life is an adventure in itself... but right now im in this wonderful place with the Lord where he's filling my innards with this joy and giddiness and freakin excitement because i have no idea what is going to happen... but i know that the Lord delights in me and he has wonderful, rad, a-freakin-mazing things planned for me! So this summer... i have no idea where i'll be!! And i think this is one of the few times, actually i think there was only one other time, when i didn't have a major, that i was stoked about not having a plan. Usually it's in these times that im scrounging around to get my act together, to make things come together, to make a plan that i'd stick to.  Oh... but not this time!! I couldn't be more child-like... knowing that my Dad has a wonderful adventure ahead of me and i'm just waiting for him to take me there! My Grandpa used to play this game with us when we would travel places with him... we'd be getting antsy in the back seat... and he'd be like, "Hey guys... see that over there..." then we yell, "YEA... is that it!?!?!" and he'd respond, "Nope!! It's better!"... that's where i am! I thought i was going to Hume... i was like... is that it... NOPE. IT'S BETTER. Now i've asked him what about Hollywood, or what about Colorado... or what about.... and he's gonna answer me! And i know it's going to be freakin' awesome!! Now i just sit back and let him drive... checkin out his awesomeness along the way! Oh... my prayer has been that the Lord would pursue me an show me that i'm his beloved... and he went straight to me adventurous side... LOVE IT!!  Boys... if you're reading this... know that i love adventure and no one does it better than my Dad... but you can try if you want! :)